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Kiss It All Better // Severus Jul 5, 2014 0:02:23 GMT -8

Post by Deleted on Jul 5, 2014 0:02:23 GMT -8

“Love is the most selfish of all the passions.”
- Alexandre Dumas, The Three Musketeers

There was a soft pattern to the way she walked back and forth; a gentle pat, pat, pat, pat as her shoes hit the floor. She'd been pacing for a while. Everyone had heard about the altercation by now, and James wasn't a genius at hiding his ass hole ways. If his best mate was even sore with him, Potter had messed something up pretty well. It took everything in her power not to seek Severus out the second she knew he was involved. Instead she worried entire afternoon and into the evening until her prefect duty started. Lily didn't even bother to check which halls were hers for the night, or to stop and scold the fourth years who were kissing beside a suit of armor. She had come straight to this room, as fast as she could and sighed seeing she was first to arrive.

Where was he? Was he alright? Was he hurt? James and Bellatrix were brilliant duelists. Her chest tightened with worry, thinking of him fighting them. The emerald green set of eyes that held every bit of what she was thinking, flicked up to the clock, watching the time like it was prey and she was a huntress. This wasn't doing anyone any good. She was going to worry herself sick. There had to be some sort of distraction in here. Homework. Lily could always do homework. After all, she had skipped out on over half her last potions class, and Slughorn was sure to be disappointed in her if she failed even one assignment.

Dragging out an empty cauldron from her bag, she placed it on the desk and leaned one her hands on the desk behind her. Sheets of ruby hair hung in her face as she hung her head. It was a good idea to do homework, but her head and her heart were working too hard against her to keep her focused. She tried her best to concentrate on the shrivelfig she was practically mutilating. Instead of skinning it, Lily had crushed half of it and diced the other before setting everything down again.

Just as she was giving up on the work, the door began to creek open. The sound brought her attention back and she snapped her head up to see who was there. The feeling in her chest was like drowning and being punched in the heart at the same time. "S-Severus??" Her quiet voice croaked out his name just as shadow of his tall stature stepped through the entry way.

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Kiss It All Better // Severus Jul 5, 2014 20:13:14 GMT -8

Post by Deleted on Jul 5, 2014 20:13:14 GMT -8

“ Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength,
while loving someone deeply gives you courage. ”
| Lao Tzu

"I have to go."

"Your burns aren't healed. You will not being going anywhere, young man," the nurse admonished. She stared Severus down until he leaned back against the pillow of his bed. He hated the Hospital Wing, but he had been sent here enough times by Potter and his gang to know he could not argue for early release. Naturally, it was Potter who had landed him here again, although for once, Snape had given back better than he had gotten. In fact, he was lucky not to be in serious trouble. He had escaped with only a week's worth of detentions from Slughorn, not the expulsion he almost deserved. Severus had nearly killed James, but thankfully, he had been able to undo his own curse. He had saved his enemy's life and left behind only a scar to bear witness to his guilt. The burns he received from Potter, and Sirius Black's punch to the face, had been more lingering. The nurse had brought down some of the swelling in his lower lip, but the skin was still tender and clotted with blood where it had split open. It was his burnt torso that kept him stuck in here, however. Despite the fact that the blisters were gone and the pain bearable, the nurse insisted he remain overnight so that she could keep an eye on him. As the minutes dragged past, Snape grew increasingly restless.

He was supposed to be meeting Lily. He had promised her. His whole body ached, not from his injuries, but with the desire to see her again. Memories of the day before flooded through his mind – her taste, her scent, the feel of her lips on his. It would have been all that he could think about, if not for the events that had landed him in the Hospital Wing... If not for Potter. Once again, he had stolen something from Severus; he had taken the joy that should have buoyed him up all day and turned it into anger and fear. Thanks to Potter, Bellatrix Black was now aware of Sev's feelings for Lily. There was no telling what that soulless harpy would do with such powerful knowledge. It was James' final jest; he would get the last laugh when she moved in for the kill. So it was, that instead of lying in bed dreaming of the girl he loved, Snape was haunted by nightmares yet to come. He was afraid. The future had never looked darker. Black shapes and phantoms moved beyond the scope of his perception. James and Bellatrix lurked in the shadows ahead.

Yet, through all that looming darkness, Lily shone. Like the purest ray of sunlight breaking through the clouds, she was his only promise of redemption, of hope. He was supposed to be with her now. Slowly, he got up from the bed. He swiped the pillows from the empty cots next to his and arranged them to give the appearance of a sleeping body. The dummy would not pass a close inspection, but a glance from the end of the hall might not rouse suspicion. It would have to do; he was already late. He wrapped a dressing gown over his bare chest, still red from the burns, and crept out of the Hospital Wing. Once he reached the freedom of the corridors, he moved quickly. It was well after curfew, but Severus knew how to get around unseen. A few secret passages and keeping to the shadows meant he did not run into anyone else. Finally, he arrived at the room where they agreed to meet. And there she was, illuminated by the moonlight as it streamed in through the windows.

Tenuous and unsure though she was, Lily was radiant. The silver light played off her pale skin and sparkled in her vibrant eyes. Even from across the room, Severus was rooted in place by her beauty. She called out his name, quietly, as if to confirm it was really him. As powerless as he had been to move at the first sight of her, now he could not stop himself from going to her side. He closed the distance quickly, drawing her into his arms, cradling her close. He held her as if he never wished to let her go. The truth was, he needed to remind himself that this was real; that he had not dreamt all that had happened between them... that she loved him in return. The smell of her hair was the first breath in the lungs of a drowning man. He felt alive again, as he had not felt since they parted. No darkness could touch him here, while he held her in his embrace. He leaned back to take in her perfect face – those features he knew with his eyes closed but which he could never see enough. "Lily," her name was a drop of honey on his tongue. It did not matter that he was standing there in slippers and pajama trousers. It did not matter that his body betrayed his fight with Potter and the Blacks. All that mattered was that he was here, holding the love of his life. "I've wanted this all day. Just this."

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Kiss It All Better // Severus Jul 8, 2014 22:44:40 GMT -8

Post by Deleted on Jul 8, 2014 22:44:40 GMT -8

He was alive, he made their rendezvous, and now he was in her arms. Lily tried her best not to hold him too tightly, for fear of hurting him. She'd been the cause of his pain before; even suspected she still was. Never again, she vowed. For the rest of their days, not once more would Lily ever hurt him. It would break her own heart if she did. As she breathed deep the smell of burn salve, Lily took a moment to remind herself he was real. The earlier part of the day had felt like a dream. They'd gone back to avoiding each other in the halls, making like they never spoke; like they never kissed. With the rumoring story of his altercation, Lily had gone from flirty stolen glances, to frantic worry. The dream had turned into a nightmare. "You have no idea how relieved I am to see you."

Though rational, Lily's imagination had taken a few wrong turns. What if they had done something terrible to him? Wiped his memory? Would James do that? Was he cross enough with her to leave Severus with no recollection of her face? How easily her life could have been spent singing harmony to the wind off the sea. Her lament would drown sailors looking for harbor. Without him, she would be nothing more than a lonely, broken soul with an empty, aching heart.

In that moment, as she meticulously cast her eyes over every inch of his face, memorizing even the smallest deviations and curves, her heart was full. "What have they done to you?" she whispered, her voice reflective of the worry she'd carried with her all evening. Of course, it could have been worse, and it wasn't like they'd newly inducted him into the Dark Lord's followers. This alteration would not deter her love for him. They were as unchangeable as a storm; resilient as the tides, ever washing back to the beach no matter how far the shore stretched to push them away.

Her soft hand ghosted over his cheek as gently as possible. She wished to kiss his lips, make his wounds fade from his skin with just her loving embrace. "You should... you should be resting, Severus. You need to get better." The words were empty though she wanted to mean them. It was true, he should have been resting, but she was more than grateful he didn't stay away. With a conceding sigh she hung her head and rested it against his chin softly. "Where does it hurt?"

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Kiss It All Better // Severus Jul 9, 2014 16:59:33 GMT -8

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She had been worried about him. A soft smile brushed his bruised lips at the thought. It was sweet to know she felt concern for him, that his welfare mattered, that she cared. Severus ran his fingers through her ruby hair. Being important to her meant the world to him. He had loved and cherished her for nearly ten years; to believe she returned something of his feelings was a kind of benediction. It was as though his wretched life had been graced with a miracle, the blessing of her affection. He could not express with words how it filled his heart. Instead, he gave her a look that said it all – his gratitude for her, his undeserving fortune to know her love.

"I'm alright. I'm here," he murmured. He did not want to talk about what had happened; he did not wish to wake from this dream, back into the dangers which threatened them. Not yet. Selfishly, Sev longed for a few more moments of bliss, untroubled by the lowering clouds over their ocean. Let the sea lay still and placid from the rapture of her company. This was all that he desired of life. Never to be apart from his beloved Lily. Nothing more than her. "As long as I am moving, I will come to you. No power on earth will keep me from you. I'd follow you as a ghost sooner than let you go," he said with a halcyon smile, running a hand over her comely cheek. His dark eyes drank her in. Every fibre of his being reverberated like the hammered strings in a piano, resounding with the harmony she played upon his heart. There was no greater feeling than this, no joy so resplendent as to bask in her adoration.

He ached for her lips, but his was too tender and sore. As his craving for her grew, Severus realized he could not avoid telling her what had happened. She would fret more for not knowing. He refused to be the cause of her distress when it was within his power to be her succor. "I've been resting all evening, and I'm fine. Really, it must look worse than it is. Black hit me, and Potter hexed me with fire. But they've got me up in the Hospital Wing, so it's been taken care of. It's doesn't hurt much, anymore. You don't have to worry."

But she did – they both had cause to worry. As his thoughts turned dark, Sev took a step back from her, and his gaze faltered to the floor. Once more, their troubles were all his fault. He had driven her away last year; he had joined the Death Eaters; he had lost control of himself and put them in danger again. "Lily... I was stupid to attack Potter. I couldn't help it. The things he was saying... The way he spoke about you..." His hands clenched into fists. Sev was shaking with rage, just remembering Potter's words and that debasing tone. It had ripped him apart to listen to such disgusting, blasphemous talk. James dismissed Lily like a slut and had twisted Snape's tortured heart in the vice of his cruelty. A thousand hurts and humiliations would not see them even, and that was what had driven Severus into a frenzy. It was one thing for Potter to wound him, but to abuse Lily was unforgivable. "I nearly killed him. I could have watched him bleed to death... I would have been glad to do so, but I – I stopped it. That's not even the worst part." He looked back at Lily, his face pale and eyes full of fear. "Bellatrix Black knows. She knows how I feel about you. She will use you against me. Oh god, she might even try to hurt you or... worse. This lip and these burns don't matter. What hurts me is the thought of losing you."

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Kiss It All Better // Severus Aug 14, 2014 21:30:07 GMT -8

Post by Deleted on Aug 14, 2014 21:30:07 GMT -8

Lily could have savored their moment together for hours. His hand in her hair calmed her instantly. Every little touch from Severus was soothing. Toying with the front of his robe was all she could do to keep her hands from fretting over his bruises. She took in a deep breath as his soft voice continued to assure her of her place with him. He had always felt this throbbing magnetic tug on his heart; the one she was learning to give in to. Lily hadn't considered that her affection for him could be more than just friendship before. Now that she had accepted it, however, her love for him was impossible to ignore.

She leaned her cheek into the warmth of his palm. "Promise me you'll rest and get better? You know I'll still worry. And hiding or not I'm sitting with you in the hospital wing. I'm allowed that." Her voice wasn't exactly firm, but she meant business. Visiting a friend in the hospital wing was hardly suspicious, and it was no secret that they had been friends since arriving at Hogwarts. This was the least of their worries, though. Severus stepped away, cutting a gap between them. Lily hated parting, but looked up as he spoke without protesting. "James Potter is a fool. I don't care what he says about me. I hope he falls off his broom." The delicate features of her typically soft face curled into a dark glare. A part of her was proud of Severus for hurting James, but she see that it was affecting him.

As the confession dripped from his swollen lips, Lily drew in a breath. One would be stupid not to fear Bellatrix Black, and Lily was not stupid. Severus seemed more than upset by it. "Severus," she breathed his name as she closed the gap again. "Hush, Love. Nothing is going to take me from you. So she know yous love me. It's not hard to see that. Bellatrix doesn't need to know the rest. And there's no way she'll be able to hurt me. Not with you around. Right?"

Gently brushing her hands over his jaw, Lily sighed. Would his protection be enough to keep Bellatrix Black at bay? Surely, Lily could handle herself as well. Still, it bothered her how frazzled he seemed. The panic and fear in his eyes made her uneasy. "I hate seeing you like this. Come sit with me. Come relax." Very softly, the girl kissed his cheek and tugged him a bit farther into the room.

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Kiss It All Better // Severus Sept 3, 2014 20:09:11 GMT -8

Post by Deleted on Sept 3, 2014 20:09:11 GMT -8

"I'll be fine," he reassured her again. He was not going to promise to sit still like an invalid in the hospital wing over a few bruises and tender skin. He would heal. However, the thought of her sitting at his side was very welcome. An idyllic image of her lingering beside his bed, fretting over his injuries, floated into his head. It was almost enough to make him reconsider his eagerness to be back in his own dorm tonight, but the idea seemed too impractical. Besides, he did not really desire her pity. He wanted her affection on equal terms; he wanted her to see him as strong. He wanted to be the person she turned to for support – not weak and wounded and in need of care. He rebutted her plans in a soft tone, "I'd love for you to stay with me, but what're you going to do, hide under the bed every time Madam Pomfrey comes through? I'll be out tomorrow morning by breakfast, just watch. You know I've had worse from Potter; this won't keep me down."

But he had to draw away to speak more freely about what had happened and explain how he had let her down. If he stayed close to her, Sev would lose his nerve. He would be too content just to be here with her in the moment and lay aside his troubles. It would be irresponsible to do that, when they were her troubles, too. He needed to make her understand, but first he had to defend himself. "I care what he says about you. I care when he says... When he calls you a..." the pain was raw in his voice as he struggled, unable to vocalize the horrible words. "He doesn't get to speak about you like that. Not after what he did. Not in front of me, not to anyone, ever. You aren't his... his trophy. You don't belong to him. You're –" he caught himself abruptly before saying the word 'mine.' Color flushed in his pallid cheeks. He fell silent and looked away from her, his pulse drumming in his ears.

When he had finally explained the entire situation, Lily moved to him. She murmured his name, and he felt his heart burst with longing. He sank into her emerald eyes. He listened, enrapt by the sound of her voice. He let her gentle words washed over him, a balm to his deepest fears. The brush of her fingers across his jaw left his skin tingling and made the breath catch in his lungs. She kissed his cheek and pulled him after her. He followed her like a lost puppy, unable to protest her in any way. He sat down beside her, seeing nothing around him but the glow of her eyes in the moonlit room. His hands were drawn to her, cupping her face, drawing her close. But he could not do more without enduring the pain of his busted lip. He craved her kiss with every fiber of his being, but he had to content himself with running his fingers down her elegant neck and entwining them once more in her silken hair.

"I hope you're right," he said eventually, once her words finally soaked through his overwhelming sense of yearning for her. "I would do anything... I will do everything to protect you. But Bellatrix is clever. Even if we can keep this a secret, she already knows that I would kill for you. She can hold that over me... And, I might as well tell you, there's someone else who knows about my feelings for you. This might seem strange, but the Head Auror, Avona Giovanni, she taught me Occlumency and, well, she knows. I think she can be trusted, though, unlike Bellatrix." An idea occurred to him at the mention of Giovanni, of someone trustworthy. A shrewd, withdrawn look crossed his face as he considered the potential. "Perhaps... there might be someone else we can trust. He might be able to help us, even... with Bellatrix."

He roused himself from his reverie, focusing back on Lily. He forced a small smile and teased a strand of her hair. "But you're right. You're right... Everything will be okay. I'll keep you safe, and you'll be on your guard, and you'll be fine. You always beat me, when we dueled, remember?"

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Kiss It All Better // Severus Sept 24, 2014 17:19:08 GMT -8

Post by Deleted on Sept 24, 2014 17:19:08 GMT -8

It pained her to see Severus hurting. He was troubled by the days events. James had done more than give him a fat lip. In a way, Lily had had a hand in his agony. That night was going to haunt her forever. At least, it felt like it would. "Fine, but I'm not avoiding you in the halls tomorrow. Passively ignoring each other is more suspicious and if I have to sit through another lesson just staring at the back of your head I'm going to lose my mind." All she could do now was try to fix the damage that had been done.

Lily let him speak, listening to the anger that dripped off his words. What ever James had said about her clearly had Severus in a fit. What ever, James Potter was a dick. She had half a mind to slap him silly the next time she saw him in the common room. Her animosity subsided as Severus cupped her face. With a gentle exhale she leaned into his palms and closed her eyes. Looking at him this close made it hard to restrain herself from kissing him. The touch of their skin was like a circuit of electricity, tinging through her body from his. It was exciting and calming at the same time.

When Severus spoke again, she thanked the Gods for the distraction. His low voice sent chills through her limbs. Of course he would protect her from the psychotic Bellatrix Black. The woman was nefarious and cold, but Severus wasn't going to let her stand in the way of him and Lily, of that much Lily was sure. Protecting their secrets from the head auror was going to be tricky, however. Lily had yet to meet Mrs. Giovanni formally, and therefore, did not have a solid opinion of the woman. But, if Severus trusted her, then Lily would trust his judgment. Another person made her a little nervous. The more people who knew about their secrets, the more chances there were that they would be outed. Then again, if someoen could take care of their Bellatrix problem, she would be forever grateful.

"I did beat you. Though, I kind of thought you were letting me win." A soft laugh fell from her lips. In an instant her hand sprang for her bad as though she'd just remembered something. Digging into the front pocket she pulled out a small brass container. "If you think letting people in will be good, then we can consider it. We should be careful though. Only let them in if we're one hundred percent sure."

Uncapping the little container, she dipped her fingertip into the creamy paste. "It's just lip balm. Well... It's infused with dittany." Lily tenderly smoothed it along his lips, caring for him the only way she could. With a soft smile her green eyes found his again. "You're right. I am your's. Not his. I will always be yours."

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