Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kiss // Lucius

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Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kiss // Lucius Nov 23, 2013 16:16:28 GMT -8

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Post by ADELINE CLAIRE GIOVANNI on Nov 23, 2013 16:16:28 GMT -8

Solitude. That was all Adeline ever wanted now that she and Benji had broken up. She had already left the key she got for her birthday on the doorknob to the sixth year boys dorm, even with her hands full. Tray upon tray lay in her hands as she kicked open the door from Ravenclaw tower and made her way down to some sort of empty classroom. Surely butterflies didn't exist this time of year, but her brother Oliver was in much warmer climate and managed to gather a few exotic species. Bugs.

Four heavy trays were charmed to make light of the load, but a glass jar was sitting on top. Four magnificent beast lay unmoving on the bottom, but they looked as though they were in prime shape ready for pinning. Peaking in every classroom there was someone doing something and she wasn't exactly ready to face the world. So Adeline kept her head down and kept descending the stairs into the darkness. The dungeons. She wasn't exactly too fond of the situation, but she needed to be alone. The Slytherins left her alone well enough and she was prepared for anything. If anyone did decide to tempt her she would lash out almost instantly.

Finally an empty room. Looking in, green light from the lake fluttered in from the glass windows that kept the water at bay. Silence. Checking over her shoulder left and right, Addie pushed through the door and set down the trays in order to get to work. Benji didn't know what he was missing, at least that was what she thought. Ever since the day, she found it impossible to cry. Instead a numb and worthless feeling reeled up and took over, so like always she pushed it back and moved on with her day to day. Classes have been hell to get through and she's managed to skip potions the last two lessons just so she wouldn't have to see his face.

Her mother on the other hand had come back after the trial and was still at a loss for who was in her office at the time. Adeline wasn't ready to face her either and tell her. She could let Benji struggle by himself and tell her mum it wasn't worth it, but she wouldn't. It wasn't her business and she didn't care. Ben could have all the attention from her mother as he wanted, Addie frankly didn't give two shits.

A heavy sigh escaped her lips and she was lost in her work. Removing a glass partition opening the case and revealing one of the things she cherished more than anything else on the planet. Especially for the moment. Soon Adeline was so engulfed in her work placing the delicate structure of wings and bodies in place and pinning them down onto the black boards. She had no idea anyone had come in while she was working and when she looked up she nearly jumped out of her skin.

Last Edit: Nov 24, 2013 10:20:04 GMT -8 by ADELINE CLAIRE GIOVANNI

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Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kiss // Lucius Nov 24, 2013 11:28:29 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Nov 24, 2013 11:28:29 GMT -8

The preceding season – from the start of term to winter break – had been a long one. Since then, every day was blurring into the next for Lucius Malfoy, and he found himself wondering where all that lost time had gone. It was like straying in and out of sleep, fatigued and fitful, dreaming dreams in unclear, jarring pieces. Or maybe it was more like sleepwalking. That was something he used to do as a child. He’d stagger ghoul-like into his parent’s bedroom, mumbling incoherently. Sometimes his face was red and strained from crying. There there baby. Always his mother called for the house elf to escort him back to his bed and lock the door from the outside.

These days, Lucius didn’t need a lock on his door in order to feel like a prisoner at Malfoy Manor. His mother’s inane habits and his father’s negligence did that enough. During the break, Lucius had done his best to avoid his parents and that generally meant living outside the manor altogether. He spent his time predominantly on the grounds, ignoring the winter chill, and walking at great strides through the frosty grass. He found he could walk for hours and the Malfoy property was vast and extensive. He woke early at dawn, early enough to see the star-strewn sky fade to pink and yellow. Most mornings he skipped breakfast. Usually he took a book with him and would stay outside till afternoon turned to dusk. Dinner would be brief and then his nights were spent either looking at the stars on the balcony or sitting by the fireplace. All winter break, Lucius had hoped, begged, prayed for the day he could come back to school and leave Wiltshire behind.

Though he was back in school, his activities were pretty much the same as they had been in Wiltshire. He spent more time outside than inside Hogwarts. Sometimes it was casual walking, other times he jogged. The Black Lake and the Astronomy Tower were his frequent haunts. A book of some sort could always be found in his pockets. And always he was alone. Lucius would’ve been outside today were it not for the sleet. All day it had been falling, stranding Lucius indoors. The world outside was so grey, Lucius felt, that the horizon and the ground seemed to melt together. Every now and then he’d see a blackbird wheel desperately across the sky.

Slightly irritated, but no more so than usual, Lucius walked down the corridors of the dungeons, intent on returning to the Slytherin dormitory for an afternoon nap. It was then though, that he saw a familiar figure ahead of him, disappearing into an adjacent room shortly after. He recognized that red-blonde hair, the easy sway of her walk. He stopped, remembering her pretty, unhurried smile. What was she doing down here? And alone, no less. It would’ve been easy, he knew, to just keep walking and maintain the status quo. After all, it’d been surprisingly easy to avoid her these last couple of months, given that she was a sixth year and neither of them exactly ran in the same circles. He’d caught her glance a few times in the Great Hall, had seen her once on the grounds. But it was different now. Now she was down here in the dungeons. Unexpected. He could’ve kept walking, but he didn’t. Lucius followed after her, steeling himself at the room’s threshold.

Quietly he observed what she was doing. Light blinked against the paper-thin, multi-colored wings of various insects as she held them up. Lucius furrowed his brow, curious. Briefly he wondered if she still played the violin. Again it occurred to him that he could still leave. It wasn’t too late. He could leave and she would never know. Things would continue to go on the same way they had been. Instead, he stayed.

Last Edit: Nov 24, 2013 11:35:53 GMT -8 by Deleted

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Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kiss // Lucius Nov 24, 2013 23:52:39 GMT -8

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Post by ADELINE CLAIRE GIOVANNI on Nov 24, 2013 23:52:39 GMT -8

"Greta Oto." It was the only few words out of Adeline's mouth. This was the one butterfly that had eluded her for sometime. Slowly the Ravenclaw hunched over the board and slowly slipped a pin through it's torso latching it onto the black velvet sheet. Adeline never heard Lucius enter the room. Instead she finished pinning the ever so delicate wings down and spraying a none aggressive glue to stiffen the insect and let it set. "That's the last one for this tray. You elusive glass winged butterfly you." She giggled and wiped the glass cover clean of prints and set it in place latching it on.

Standing up to straighten her back, Adeline caught glimpse of someone lurking. Quickly she jumped back and knocked a stool over, hands covering her chest trying to slow her heartbeat. "Lucius! By Merlin you scared the daylights out of me!" Addie wasn't upset in the slightest. Instead the Ravenclaw girl was pleased. Slowly a smile started to form across her lips and she tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

Within an instant she felt insecure. Adeline stared at Lucius for a moment taking in things she hadn't noticed before. "You've gotten skinnier." Moving away from the counter and toward Lucius, Adeline reached out and brushed his cheek with the back of her hand. "Have you been eating alright? I haven't talked to you in what seems like ages. How is the piano coming along?" Curiosity got the best of her and she pushed her reddish blonde locks back behind her shoulders.

Lucius had always struck her as someone she could trust. Of course Addie had no idea why, but they both enjoyed tea and classical music. He was just so different than anyone else she had ever met. Even though she was dating, she would have lied if she told anyone that Lucius never crossed her mind. She wanted to know everything she could about him. How he's been. "I wouldn't be a lie if I told you I missed you, and I'm still angry that you ditched me." A giggle escaped her lips as she looked up at him.

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Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kiss // Lucius Nov 25, 2013 18:15:10 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Nov 25, 2013 18:15:10 GMT -8

In spite of himself, a half-smile appeared on Lucius’ face when Addie saw him. It amused him to see the many and various faces she could put on. Raised brows for surprise, followed shortly by the sweet, girlish grin he knew all too well. A giggle. Then she pressed the back of her hand to his cheek, a maternal gesture he appreciated. Finally she met him with a dreamy look of nostalgia. All these expressions she traversed through within a matter of seconds, and Lucius found himself strangely comforted by the reliability of it. He breathed a sigh of relief that she didn’t greet him with hostility or spite, though he could hardly blame her if she had. But Lucius knew Adeline wasn’t that sort of person. She wasn’t the type to hold grudges, to let things weigh her down.

If anyone else had touched his face, Lucius would have made some sort of disgruntled remark and shied away immediately. With Addie, he stood still, thinking about the comment she made. He hadn’t really realized it till she said something, but he supposed he was thinner than usual. Lucius had always been tall and slim by nature. The brawn could be left up to the likes of Quidditch players like Ezio and Rodolphus. But with his recent jogging combined with his less-than-healthy dietary habits, it shouldn’t have surprised Lucius that he’d lost a little weight. “Yeah, I expect I look awful.” Lucius stroked the scraggly hairs of his beard, deciding that perhaps it was time he ditched the mountain man look. He wondered why he felt so self-conscious all of a sudden. At her inquiry, Lucius laughed, remembering his brief attempt at playing the piano. “Didn’t stick,” he replied with a slight shrug.

Lucius stepped forward toward the butterflies pinned against the wall. The wings were so thin that the light shone through them like stained glass. There was something odd about seeing them here of all places. The dungeons were so dark and bleak, the eerie green light from the Black Lake being the only illumination. Beauty wasn’t something normally to be found down in these tunnels. Bringing one hand to the nape of his neck, he let it rest there, observing the insects closely. “What brought this on?” Lucius asked, motioning his head toward the wall of bugs. Pinned to the wall like a collage with the dim light shining on them, Lucius thought they looked more like jewels than bugs.

Addie’s words caused Lucius to frown. His stare remained fixed on the butterflies, adamantly avoiding Addie’s stare. Though she had spoken without reproach, that didn’t make the subject any less uncomfortable. Lucius sighed softly. He knew he should say something, anything to make himself seem like less of an ass, but he found he was struggling for the words. He did what he’d done for a reason. A poor reason, but a reason nonetheless. “Angry, huh? Well, then you have a funny way of showing it.”

Last Edit: Nov 25, 2013 18:16:27 GMT -8 by Deleted

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Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kiss // Lucius Nov 26, 2013 17:36:58 GMT -8

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Post by ADELINE CLAIRE GIOVANNI on Nov 26, 2013 17:36:58 GMT -8

That was all Adeline needed to know that she was back in. He was right in one aspect about looking awful, but Addie didn't see it that way. "I wouldn't go that far, you look like you could use some cleaning up, but you still look lovely to me. And maybe a decent meal or two." It came out a little rash, but with new found courage she shrugged it off as though it were nothing. Lucius had always been there in the back of her mind even when she was with Benji. Surprisingly his laugh sparked a light behind Addie's eyes and she shook her head.

"You know if you don't stick with it, it won't stick with you. That's what my father always told me when I was younger." Nudging his ribs quietly before he went to inspect the array of insects she had been working on. Addie grinned as he seemed to have some sort of fascination in her work and moved to look at them from his angle. When did she start? Adeline scrounged the very depths of her mind trying to remember. "It was years ago actually. My brother got me started and it sort of stuck I suppose. I was maybe eight."

Quickly everything shifted to the last time they were to spend some sort of time together. A smile crept across her lips as he frowned. It was nice to know that Lucius had emotion, even if it was short lived and very slight. Adeline wasn't truly angry with Lu, she knew that he had his own life to live and he was a Malfoy. That sort of name was a difficult one to live up to and things could pull his attention away from anything. "It's hard to be strictly angry with you I suppose. Sure I was hurt, but I got over it. Things happen and we move past them, we're only human after all."

Lucius seemed to fall quiet after that and she looked up at him. His eyes seemed like they were haunted with something in his past, but Adeline wasn't going to push him to say anything at all. He would in his own time and she would be there if he needed it. "You can be yourself around me you know. I'm not going to judge."

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Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kiss // Lucius Nov 30, 2013 18:28:43 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Nov 30, 2013 18:28:43 GMT -8

“May I?” Lucius asked, reaching into the next tray for another butterfly. He held the creature gently in his hands, mindful to not bend the wings or crush its body. It was one of the larger of the butterflies, its wings a tawny brown and fading to blue. It was also covered in black spots. Lucius didn’t know enough about bugs to know its name, but thought he’d seen this sort of butterfly many times back home in Wiltshire. He once read somewhere when he was younger that butterflies only lived for a matter of weeks. He supposed he should be thankful that he wasn’t a butterfly. Slowly he slid the pin through to the back of the board. Lucius glanced over his shoulder at Adeline. “It might sound stupid, but sometimes I really just forget to eat,” he laughed, realizing how absurd that probably sounded. And he didn’t know how to justify it.

Lucius nodded as she spoke about her brother and the butterflies. Many times in the past he thought about what it might be like to have a sibling, but always felt that his parents were enough trouble as it was. Looking at the collage of insects though, Lucius briefly considered the benefits of a brother or sister, someone to talk to, to teach you things. He waved his hand abstractedly and replied, “It’s great. All of it. I had no idea you were interested in this sort of thing. Is it just a hobby or do you want to do more with it?” Adeline truly was a multi-faceted individual. From this to playing the violin, it appeared as if there was nothing she couldn’t do.

At her last statement, Lucius smirked, resembling a bit of his old self. “What makes you think I’m not being myself?” Though he smiled at her as if he knew the answer, Lucius himself wasn’t really sure. Up until this year, he’d been what everyone expected him to be, an insensitive, thoughtless, manipulative Slytherin, concerned only with hierarchy and power. But what had brought on this change? One too many criticisms from his taciturn father or yet another letter filled with gossip-y prose from his twit of a mother? He was looking for answers, answers that were anything than the ones spoon-fed to him as a child. Even still, he didn’t think he was any more clear-headed now than he was before. It was becoming exhausting being so in between of things. Uncertain. Looking back at Addie, he smiled, glad she was able to tolerate him and his many nuances.

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Suicide Notes and Butterfly Kiss // Lucius Dec 1, 2013 23:03:38 GMT -8

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Post by ADELINE CLAIRE GIOVANNI on Dec 1, 2013 23:03:38 GMT -8

"Of course." Adeline watched the way Lucius handled the delicate creatures and leaned over the table a bit lingering on the tips of her toes. Slowly her palms started to cup her jaw and she grinned up at him. "It doesn't sound stupid at all, sometimes we forget our basic needs. I can go days without eating because I'm so focused on my studies. I understand." Slowly a blush started to creep up across her cheeks, Lucius always seemed so interested in the things she did and this was just another one of those things.

Her eyes scanned his for any disinterest but they didn't hold any of the sort. Rolling back onto her heels slowly, Adeline smiled up at him with a sort of quiet solace. "Thank you." Looking over the pieces of work she just shrugged. "I wasn't planning on doing anything more with them, I love looking at them and it gets my mind off of everything. Somehow when I'm bothered with something I always just move to them, its like an instinct I suppose, calming." Addie didn't really know what to do with her hands so instead she placed them behind her back and watched him work.

That smirk nearly made the poor girl melt. "Nothing, I'm just saying you don't have a reputation to uphold when you're around me. You're free to do whatever you want I suppose." Adeline returned the smile thoughtfully. She had no idea what she was getting herself into with Lucius, but at this moment in time it seemed he needed her more than she needed anyone else. The room fell quiet for a few moments and she watched him intently as his lips curled up into a smile. "You should smile more often. I think I've told you this before, but you look a million galleons better with a grin." Tucking a blonde curl behind her ear, Adeline couldn't help but make eyes contact with the seventh year Slytherin.