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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Oct 18, 2013 11:10:19 GMT -8

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Post by EZRA JUDE WINCHESTER on Oct 18, 2013 11:10:19 GMT -8

Ezra had spent awhile with Jorrie, as much as she was hurt, she couldn't really stay mad at him. But nonetheless, she was still hurt. So after a little while of cleaning herself up, and promising Jorrie that she didn't hate him, she left. She didn't know where she was going, really. She just knew that she wanted to get out, to go somewhere that made her feel better. She couldn't go to the Tower, she couldn't really bear to see her friends. She knew they might be mad, or even disappointed, and she wasn't prepared to deal with it just yet. Eventually have to go back, and most likely explain herself, a thought that made her stomach turn to knots.

She walked down the steps of the Hall, and out the doors. Blocking out just about everything that wasn't in her immediate line of sight. She tuned out the idle chatter of the people passing, even though most of the conversations had little to do with her. Her tear streaked makeup had been fixed, her hair brushed. Now she just looked normal, not like she had spent the better part of an hour and a half sporadically crying. Atleast that way she could tell anyone who happened to ask where she was going that she was just taking a stroll, and not looking to hide away.

Subconsciously, she had made her way to the Pitch, and decided that right there would do just fine. Walking over to one of the goalposts, she leaned against it and slid down to the ground, sighing heavily. She had never had drama in her life. No real drama anyway. Things were always simple. And now her first involvement with a boy, had turned out extraordinarily bad, and would add quite a bit of drama that she had no idea how to handle. And she didn't like it one bit. Sure she could say that it was all just rumors, nothing had happened and that everyone was just plain loony. But she couldn't exactly keep the people who were there from talking, not to mention she was a terrible liar.

Groaning in irritation, she slid from the goalpost and laid on her back, picking at pieces of grass at her sides. 'One thing at a time..' She thought. 'Just start with one thing, and work from there.' But it was trying to find just one thing to focus on fixing that was getting her. When she thought of one thing, dozens more popped into her head. The most prominent however, was not to fix her reputation, but how to fix her relationships with her friends. Eddie, Benji, Jorrie, Cait, Kat...the list went on. She couldn't pinpoint who to talk to, who to explain to. Her and Jorries exchange was brief and mostly limited to him trying to help her look less like a mess, and a lot of apologizing. Talking to him was still going to be hard. Eddie and Benji? She didn't know if she could even look at them. They were her best friends, and she hadn't told them a thing about her and Alex.

"I should've just skipped potions that day. I should've gone somewhere else, should've just dropped it when I had the chance, and I never would've met him. None of this would've happened. God, I'm so...so..BLOODY STUPID!" She babbled to herself, slapping the ground before covering her eyes.

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Oct 18, 2013 20:28:50 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Oct 18, 2013 20:28:50 GMT -8

The weather lately seemed to match the over all emotions of the students at Hogwarts. There were all mixed up. One day it would be freezy, the next things were warm. And though it seemed impossible to predict either the weather, or the students, only a few things seemed certain amongst the chaos: things were stormy, and they weren't clearing up anytime soon.

This is what preoccupied Eddie Muler's brain as he strolled lazily back to the castle from his Magical Creature's class with a group of boys he only knew by association. Things were all wrong lately, and it bothered the boy to know end. Things had been weird since the whole 'Sexual Education' incident. Of course things were being kept rather hush-hush, and everyone who had been present had been taken aside and had a stern talking to. Of course, this was all to try and keep control of the quickly raging situation. It made sense though. The school didn't want any of the information of what had happened being leaked; What had occurred in that classroom was detrimental to the lives of both the teacher and Ezra Winchester.

Poor Ezzie. Eddie frowned as he thought about his friend. Of how she had been wrongly taken advantage of, probably because she was so sweet and willing to please. Eddie could still see the way the man had left her exposed in the classroom, the smug note in his voice when he tried to pass it all off as a lesson, and it truly made his blood boil. The worst of it all had been that since the dreadful day, he had yet to see head, nor tail of his friend. She was in distress, something he felt morally obligated to help ease, and he couldn't be of any use. He had gotten up during the class as a silent protest to the injustice that the teacher was getting away with and raced after Ezra, but it was too little too late. The girl was gone, and now, he didn't know if she was ever coming back.

Conversations drifted around Ed like the wet snow that was had started falling heavily. Looked like that storm was starting. The normally bright and cheery boy was feeling weighed down by the atmospheric mood and felt himself sigh as he followed the lesser acquaintances back to the castle. There was something that caught his eyes though. Something small, and blond, on the wet ground. It was hard to be certain, but it looked familiar. "Hey, guys, I'll see you round, ok?"

Once the group had broken away from Eddie the boy turned and hurried in a jog towards the pitch. His big shoes slapped against the muddy ground, slashing his school slacks with mud and ice. He trotted up on the girl, with a near panicked excitement about him. "Ezra!" he called out half way to her, slowing down as he got closer, catching his breath, not being in the best shape. "Ezra, I've been looking all over for you for, like, forever!" Ignoring the wet and ignoring the cold, the boy walked over to her and sat down beside her, not getting too close so as to make sure she still had her personal space encase she was avoiding him.

"Are you okay?" He asked softly, genuine concern in his quiet blue eyes.
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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Oct 18, 2013 20:57:36 GMT -8

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Post by EZRA JUDE WINCHESTER on Oct 18, 2013 20:57:36 GMT -8

Ezra heard the sploshing of shoes against muddy earth, and she was half sure she heard her name being called. She brushed it off, not wanting to answer whoever was calling. But eventually she heard a very familiar voice right next to her.

"Ezra, I've been looking all over for you for, like, forever!"

She took her hands from her eyes and looked over to him. There he was, in all his...Eddie-ness. And it made her feel terrible. She had never wanted to worry him. And she certainly hadn't wanted him to panic. But, looking back, the last he had seen of her was her running out of the classroom after...all that. So he had the right to be worried. She sat up, leaning against the goal post once more, and smiled weakly. She went to speak, but the words got caught in her throat. She bit her lip, giving him a look of remorse.

"I just...I needed some time. I just had to get out of there. I'm sorry..."

It was a loaded sorry to say the least. Sorry for running off, for keeping secrets, for just about everything. So she sat there for awhile, in silence, her jeans soaked from the soggy ground. Sighing deeply she scooted closer and leaned her head on his shoulder.

"Are you okay?"

"I screwed up, Eddie. Real bad. I don't even know how to..."

'I don't even know how to tell you without you thinking I'm terrible.' She thought. Eddie had pretty much always been there for her. Since day one when she accidentally landed on him in her Animagus form. They were thick as thieves, her, him and Benji. And she had lied, or kept secrets, but that was just as bad. And for them to find out that way...to see her that way. It was chaos. She had been a pretty good girl her whole life. Never got into much trouble, just a lot of mischief. But she had never done something that stupid, that wrong. She was completely unprepared for this kind of situation, and to her, it felt like her world was just crumbling. Sure, on some points she might be over reacting, but on a whole, she was having a proper reaction...she thought anyway.

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Oct 19, 2013 7:06:09 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Oct 19, 2013 7:06:09 GMT -8

Eddie's face fell into a very sorrowful, expression of empathy. It was the same look puppies at the shelters made when they found out they were going home with the child they'd been playing with for half an hour. It wasn't a look the people of Hogwarts were accustomed to seeing on Edwin, but it was a look that was needed for such a situation. He was glad when the girl got close enough to rest her head on his shoulder, that at least said to him that she was ready for comfort and willing to trust him. Eddie took it one step farther and put his arm around her shoulder, holding her close to his side as the heavy flakes of snow began to fall.

"I screwed up, Eddie. Real bad. I don't even know how to..."

The sentence hung off in the still air- an unfinished thought obviously too complicated for words. Ed just watched the girl quietly, expecting nothing from her. She didn't owe him an apology, or an explanation. She didn't owe anything to anyone... but herself. Of course, that always seemed like the last person who'd want to forgive you of anything- Ed should know. He said nothing, and just let her rest on him, bandaging any wounds in their friendship one unspoken word at a time. Eventually, once the silence had become comfortable again, Eddie decided to act.

"You shouldn't be sitting out here all alone." He turned his body slightly so he could use his gloved hand to push her mess of hair from her face. His voice was calm, soft and unassuming. Every word coming out as a hopeful note instead of a persuading chord, "Sitting in the wet like this is gonna make you sick... and that's more than you need right now..."

He gave her shoulders a gently, reassuring rub and brought forth an idea. "How about we go in? You can get washed off, I'll get us some hot cider, and you can just... talk to me?" he smiles a sympathetic smile, looking down into her eyes. "Get things off your mind, you know?

"I'm a great listener."

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Oct 21, 2013 11:43:00 GMT -8

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Post by EZRA JUDE WINCHESTER on Oct 21, 2013 11:43:00 GMT -8

Ezra shuddered in a breath as Eddies arm fell over her. She struggled to find the words to say, to say she was sorry, to explain the whole mess. But none made themselves apparent. So there she sat, watching the snow fall around them, blanketing the Pitch in fluffy white. She stared out, the snow looking like it was falling slower than her eyes could track. Everything was silent. Tense. Her thoughts wouldn't break away from how to explain things. But eventually the tension eased, and the silence grew familiar. It was the silence that had always been between the two. Friendly and unintentional.

She brought her knees in close to her and sighed.

"It's not all his fault, Eddie... It's mine too." She said quietly. In her head it felt like she was shouting, but in reality, it was no more than a whisper. She waited for whatever repercussions that small statement might have, but there came none. He had not moved, nor had he pushed her away. Instead he spoke in the voice that he always had. Always reassuring, always kind.

"You shouldn't be sitting out here all alone. Sitting in the wet like this is gonna make you sick... and that's more than you need right now..." For some reason, she hadn't expected Eddie to be so...non invasive about it. She expected him to want answers, or for him to simply be mad with her. But everything else pointed to him wanting nothing more than to help her however he could. And at that particular moment, she needed that more than anything.

"How about we go in? You can get washed off, I'll get us some hot cider, and you can just... talk to me?Get things off your mind, you know?"

She smiled in return and nodded. The realization of having come out there in a tshirt were setting in, as was the seeping cold. She hadn't noticed it before, but she was freezing. A change of clothes and some hot cider sounded like heaven.

She pulled herself up, seeing an outline of her legs that she had left from the snow falling around her. She chuckled quietly at it as Eddie stood up as well. Thinking it looked a bit like a wonky M, or a set of angry teeth for the goalpost. She gave Eddie a small smile and a nod and began trudging back to the castle.

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Oct 23, 2013 17:42:16 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Oct 23, 2013 17:42:16 GMT -8

Eddie smiled back softly at his friend as she agreed and gave her a hand up. He took a moment to check himself over. His khaki school pants were wet, soaked through on his ass and the back of his legs with mud and snow. He chuckled, and slapped off the worst of the snow that clung to him. "How are you so good at getting me dirty??" he joked, smiling up at Ezra before they started their trek back to the school.

the wind picked up while walking through the open field, bringing Eddie's attention to the little bumps raise on the girl's arms. Mentally kicking himself for being unable to say no to a lady in distress, Eddie took a few breaths to brace himself and unbuttoned his robe, passing it off to the sleeveless girl.He was wearing his charcoal school sweater under neither, so it really wasn't a big deal, but to the wimpy warm-weather wayfarer anything less than three layers in the snow was torture. He choked his neck out with his scarf, sliding it over most of his mouth and chin, and walked closely with his good friend.

"When we get in, I'm gonna head straight down to the kitchens and get us the cider." He planned with her as he walked, "You can take your time doing what you need to, I wont rush you. Where would you like me to wait for you? We can do the commons, or my room.... or maybe your room is more comfortable? I would understand if you wanna be somewhere familiar and not as public..."

They made it to the castle; its rough hewn stone walls caught the falling snow and held it close, painting one side of the castle white with the wet flakes. Ed grabbed hold of the heavy wooden door to the west hall and held it open for Ezra. The wood banged loudly against the stone frame after Ed had scooted inside, making him jump slightly, but he shrugged it off to try and train himself to be less jumpy.

"Ok, so I'll meet you upstairs in a bit." He nodded as he walked backwards towards a perpendicular hall he thought might take him towards the kitchens. He went to turn away, but remember something potentially important and turned back, "Oh! Anything else I can get you while I'm down there, Ezra?" he called loudly over the distance, shivering and rubbing his upper arms to try and keep himself warm.

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Nov 12, 2013 21:21:25 GMT -8

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Post by EZRA JUDE WINCHESTER on Nov 12, 2013 21:21:25 GMT -8

"How are you so good at getting me dirty??"

Ezra laughed a bit, shrugging goofily. "Atleast I didn't fall on you this time." She joked, nudging him with her shoulder. She was glad that Eddie was joking. She wanted to forget the whole situation, and now that she could see Eddie didn't totally hate her from the start, she felt loads better, and even a little happy. While she wasn't to fond of the tides of telling him the story, he was her best friend, besides Kat and Benji. Since he was the first to come to her, she felt he should know the through of it all before he heard whatever other people were turning it into.

Ezra jumped a little as Eddie put his robe on her. She gave him a scolding/joking look and tossed it on his head.

"Don't you get chivalrous with me, Eddie. I've lasted this long, I'll be fine you nut. Castles not far anyway. Besides, you look like a Popsicle." She laughed, sticking her tongue out. She shoved her hands in her pockets and gave him a look that. Ask ally said 'See? Totally fine.' She was fine really. She wasn't feeling too bothered by the cold, and the castle wasn't far off.

"When we get in, I'm gonna head straight down to the kitchens and get us the cider. You can take your time doing what you need to, I wont rush you. Where would you like me to wait for you? We can do the commons, or my room.... or maybe your room is more comfortable? I would understand if you wanna be somewhere familiar and not as public..."

Ezra nodded, loving the idea of cider. "I'm just going to change into something warm and fluffy." She paused thinking things over. "Could we maybe talk in your room? I don't really...talk to any of the girls, and I'd like to be somewhere...I dunno, less awkward and scary?" She made a scrunch face as she tried to explain. Ezra was and always had been one of the guys. She got along with them better than other girls. Girls were confusing and just plain cruel sometimes. Aside from Cait and Kat, she had no female friends. Eddies room seemed like it would be the best, because the common room was sure to be bustling.

"Ok, so I'll meet you upstairs in a bit. Oh! Anything else I can get you while I'm down there, Ezra?"

She was halfway up when he asked, and shouted back down a no. She raced up the stairs and bolted into her room as quickly as she could. She changed into some dry jeans, and tank top and a giant hoodie and some ridiculously fuzzy slippers. She quietly came out of her room and made her way to Eddies, hoping no one else was there. Thankfully no one was. Ezra sat in the edge of Eddies bed, and looked around, seeing the toads . She walked over and looked at them, saying hellos and what not as she waited for her friend.

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Nov 14, 2013 15:58:52 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Nov 14, 2013 15:58:52 GMT -8

Eddie laughed, pulling his robe back on before giving the girl a quick salute, "You got it! My place it is! It should be empty right now, so just push on in and make yourself comfy! I'm sure Jeremiah will be happy to see you again! I'll be there in just a sec!" and with that, he turned off and hurried off to the kitchens.

There wasn't much going on in the kitchen right now. It was usually slow in-between meals but today seemed particularly so as the house elves meandered about, trying to get the little bit of work they did have to last longer. They were happy to see the boy come in, and scrambled to help him out with his needs, pulling together a silver serving tray with a pot of cider and a few pretty cups. They even added cinnamon sticks, a few biscuits, and, at Eddie's requests, tuna paté and crackers. Eddie thanked them all for their help, and carefully carried the tray back towards his tower at the opposite end of the school.

It would be a lie to say the boy didn't spill hot cider on himself once or twice on route to the Ravenclaw tower. It was inevitable. Foods and Eddie just didn't get along together.

Eddie made it into the tower eventually, with a little help from a fellow student, and headed slowly up to his room, trying to give the girl as much time as she needed- he also needed to watch his balance on the old stone steps. His fingers really didn't need anymore scolding, and they had already lost a few biscuits to the small pool of cider forming in one corner of the tray. Eddie pushed through the door to his dorm back first, and did a quick twirl to look for his friend.

"Hellu?"

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Nov 16, 2013 14:04:44 GMT -8

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Post by EZRA JUDE WINCHESTER on Nov 16, 2013 14:04:44 GMT -8

"Hellu?"

Ezra jumped at his voice, and then immediately went to help with the tray.

"Eddie, you could've told me to come with you! I would've helped!" She laughed as biscuits were smooshy from spilled cider. She took the tray from his hands and set it on the dresser, carefully as to not spill more cider and have it flood the furniture. Once the tray was set down, she picked up the soggy biscuits and set them in a dry corner of the tray.

"Looks like you had some technical difficulties on the way up here. I'd wager..." She looked at the tray. "The cider committed mutiny on the cup and the biscuits were accidental casualties?" She smirked. She had missed joking with Eddie. She hadn't seen much of him the past few weeks, what with her and Alex and him and Cait, they were in the same House, but always seemed to have missed each other. It had made her a bit depressed for awhile, he was one of her best friends and they had seen hide nor hair of each other in quite some time, let alone have the chance to sit and talk.

And there was that word. Talk. Something Ezra desperately needed to do. Especially with her friends. She didn't know what sort of rumors had floated around since the incident, and felt more than obligated to get the story straight where her friends were concerned. She grabbed a rather slippery cup of cider and sat on the floor, crossing her legs.

"This is perfect." She smiled as she inhaled the steam rolling up from the cup.

"I didn't sleep with him," She blurted out. Immediately her face froze and her eyes went wide. The words had escaped before she knew that they were even in her head. She looked down at her cup and then back to Eddie. And repeating that a few times before clearing her throat.

"So, uhm...yeah, theres that. How have you been?" She hastily tried changing the subject.

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Dec 9, 2013 9:41:06 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Dec 9, 2013 9:41:06 GMT -8

"Eddie, you could've told me to come with you! I would've helped!"

"Yeah..." Eddie laughed lamely, "I could have, but then, what kind of man would I be if I couldn't handle a tray of stuff!" the boy very articulately put it as he passed the tray off to the girl and wiped his hands off on his school robes. A little sore, but not burnt- he was glad for that.

"Looks like you had some technical difficulties on the way up here. I'd wager... The cider committed mutiny on the cup and the biscuits were accidental casualties?"

"Err, well, I-" Eddie rubbing the back of his head awkwardly and let out a anxious laugh, "Normally I'd say I'm a pretty graceful person, but something happens when I'm around food. I'm always spilling things, or dropping things, or cutting myself..." He talked animatedly with his hands as he sat down on his bed with a happy sigh, "It's why my dad stopped taking me to dinner parties.

"But, whatever." he waved that all aside, "It's not important- is this good??" he motioned to his room and their surroundings. There was a strange divide in the room, where half of the room was a mess, and the other half- Ben and Ed's half- was military grade tidy. Most of that was Ed's doing though, as he often took it apon himself to tidy up not only after himself, but Benji too, who he now felt was his family. He also spent a lot of time throwing the other room mates clutter over to their side of the room, making a very distinct divide between the boys. It wasn't that Ed hated clutter, it was just an automatic action that had been hammered deep into him at a young age by his father and base generals alike. "You sure you wouldn't want to go elsewhere?"

"This is perfect." The girl said contently as she sat down on his floor.

"Oooooooh no you don't!" Ed shook his head as he got up and helped the girl to her feet, "No friend of mine is sitting on the floor. Try the bed, it's comfier!" He laughed and flopped back onto his blue and bronze blankets. "See? Much better than the cold old floor!"

"So...." he started off softly, not wanting to be too pushy. He knew she would open up with time. All he had to do was provide the support she needed and let her know she wasn't being judged, or-

"I didn't sleep with him!"

"Woah." that had come out a lot sooner than he thought it would. Eddie sat up, and knit his fingers in his lap, focusing on a chip in the stone floor as he calculated the right response in this situation. "Ummm... good."

She was asking him questions, but none of it felt right, not now that the real issue was out in the open. Ed turned to the girl, and while she was talking, spoke up firmly, "Look, Ezra, I don't want things to be awkward between us, ok? I mean, let's be honest, that... thing before Christmas was.... more than awkward-" he laughs nervously, fidgeting with his hands and looking away. Ed had a rule when it came to talking about sex: you didn't. He was very much still a kid in that aspect, and any bedroom talk, even with Cait, made him completely uncomfortable. But this wasn't something that was going to go away. It was something that needed to be talked about, less it ruin not only the Ezra's reputation, but their friendship as well. And Ed wasn't about to let that happen.

"Why did it happen? I mean, things are going around the school, and I don't know what to believe- I don't want to believe any of it, actually. Not unless it comes from your mouth." he gave Ezra a serious look to prove he was done clowning around, "You're one of my best friends, Ezzie... and I really, really wanna make sure you're okay... that you're not hurt, emotionally, or mentally. I wanna make sure you're got the support you need to get through this... I wanna make sure you're happy."

With a quick smile, he turned to the tea tray for a distraction, "I think, if we're gonna go any further, we're gonna need some snacks and stuff." He poured the girl a cup and handed it to her, snapping a stick of cinnamon and dropping half in her cup.

"What happened that day... in that classroom?"

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The point of no return [EDDIE!] Dec 12, 2013 12:04:07 GMT -8

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Post by EZRA JUDE WINCHESTER on Dec 12, 2013 12:04:07 GMT -8

"Yeah...I could have, but then, what kind of man would I be if I couldn't handle a tray of stuff!" She shook her head laughing a bit. "You men and you're need to do everything." She joked.

"Looks like you had some technical difficulties on the way up here. I'd wager... The cider committed mutiny on the cup and the biscuits were accidental casualties?"

"Err, well, I-Normally I'd say I'm a pretty graceful person, but something happens when I'm around food. I'm always spilling things, or dropping things, or cutting myself...It's why my dad stopped taking me to dinner parties."

"Thats precisely why I would invite you to all the dinner parties. That way we could be clumsy together! And this is perfect." She smiled when he asked if she were sure she wanted to be there instead of somewhere else.

She laughed as he pulled her from the floor and had her sit on the bed, nearly spilling her cider. "Fine fine. I suppose you're right, it is comfier."

Ezra really hadn't meant for it to blurt out like that, but she knew that was one thing she wanted out there before anything else. The solid fact that she hadn't done what many speculated she had. But bumbling into that talk was accidental, and she tried to shift the subject quickly, but Eddie was having none of it now that it was laid out.

"Look, Ezra, I don't want things to be awkward between us, ok? I mean, let's be honest, that... thing before Christmas was.... more than awkward-" She nodded. Awkward didn't cover the half of it. Her best friends had seen her in an incomparably compromising situation and she had fled from them.

"You're one of my best friends, Ezzie... and I really, really wanna make sure you're okay... that you're not hurt, emotionally, or mentally...." She nodded, it was all she could do at that point. There weren't any words popping into her head in reply. She smiled genuinely at him and laughed a little as the cinnamon stick plopped into her cup. She grabbed a biscuit and settled in, ready to get things out there, to set things straight.

"What happened that day... in that classroom?"

She thought that it would've been easier to talk about by now. She had always been able to soldier on and put things behind her. But she supposed she wouldn't be able to until she actually talked about it first. She tapped her fingers on the sides of her cup and sighed a bit.

"Professor Carovski and I.. We were together, sort of." She paused. "I just want you to know, that I had never had a boyfriend before, so I was absolutely clueless, ok?" She looked at Eddie both seriously and a bit pleadingly. "It started with when I bumped into him after a potions class. I sort of blew up a few beakers and my robes were wrecked. He fixed them and we started talking. Somehow we ended up having dinner in his room and one thing led to another and we kissed...I'm not quite sure how it led to that but it did. We agreed to see each other again." She looked away from Eddie, feeling ashamed of herself, and could only imagine how he was seeing her now. She downed half of her cup, setting it in her lap and continued, her gaze still elsewhere." What you saw was...an accident. He wanted to talk to me after class, so I stayed behind and we did talk..until we didn't, and I didn't exactly stop him. Thats when you all came in..."

She took a breath, telling herself to just get it all out and not have to talk about it. "He was the first guy I ever liked, Eddie. I mean I knew it was wrong, he was a bloody teacher, but I...I never really liked anyone before. And no one liked me like that either. So I was stupid and I went with it!...I'm just a guilty as he is for what happened." She looked up at her friend. "Thats it. Anything else you've heard, isn't true. And I..I don't want to know what anyone else has said.."