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Higher in Your Ways // OPEN Nov 12, 2013 21:21:32 GMT -8

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Her reasons for Rab having her book made sense, though he didn't know why Rab would have read it and not just returned it. And why return it now? If it had been so long, why bother. Addie must not have missed it if she wasn't looking for it.

It bothered him slightly that she had an agreement with Integra, obviously it wasn't one regarding the way the Slytherin treated him. Until resiliently she would go out of her way to bother the boy. the only reason she backed off a little was because she had overhead a conversation he had. Benji didn't know where Joram fit into this, he had never really spoken to Joram aside from a little bit at Christmas. Why would Joram be upset, especially if he hated Addie.

Addie was getting defensive and it only put Benji on edge. He never said she couldn't have other friends, he just didn't expect her to be friends with the people he didn't really get along with. " I never said you couldn't have other friends, nor did I /ever/ think you were having an affair!" It was true, the thought really hadn't crossed his mind, until now. He knew she loved him and he hated that he got so up tight but that was who he was. "Why don;t you think he did it? What makes you think he is so innocent?" He didn't understand, what made Addie trust in Rab so much. "You're Mom is a good Auror, one of the best. She wouldn't arrest someone if they were innocent."

The look on Addie's face told him she was angry, or at least displeased with him. Question what they had? Why shouldn't he question what they had. His whole life people had been walking out on him, people he loved, people who said they loved him back. "Don't you understand that me being a weapon is dangerous for you? Just knowing me is dangerous."

Benji was taken aback. Never before had he hear Adeline swear and now she was swearing at him. "Get my head on strait? What the hell do you think I have been doing for the last 4 years of my life? Do you think I wanna be what I am, feel how I feel? Well I have some news for you, I don't! I was made this way, taught to not trust people, taught to judge by status. And you know what? It has taken me 4 years to break enough of that to get away. Don't you dare tell me I am blinded by anything because you have no idea!" He was angry now, and the core of his body was raising in temperature. Benji could feel himself losing control but there was really nothing he could do about it.

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Higher in Your Ways // OPEN Nov 12, 2013 21:44:16 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Nov 12, 2013 21:44:16 GMT -8

Everything blew up. Every tiny little thing was being brought into light and being blown out of proportion. Rubbing her face quietly, even if it looked as though she was shutting down, the girl cleared her throat trying to find her words, but she couldn't even think of a single thing to say to him. "Why don't I think he did it? How in the hell is sixth year supposed to perform necromancy? With the cirriculum we have it's nearly impossible to learn anything new, and if he did do it he did it with good reason. In my six years of being at this school he never did anything, he doesn't have friends, hell Ben. He doesn't have family, or he didn't, not until earlier this year. I just- why do I have to defend myself over him?" She was getting beyond frustrated, pushing herself up from the couch flexing her hands at her sides. Addie started to pace the length of the room and back again.

"So you knew all of this? You knew what your dad was doing and you didn't even care to tell me? Of all people you didn't tell me. Does Eddie know? Cait? Does anyone know or am I the only one of your friends that knows, and I found out through the chance that I glanced at what my mum was working on. Benji, we trust you, we all love you and you're hiding something this big from everyone? You think that me knowing you is dangerous? I could say the samething about you knowing me. My parents, both of them, locked wizards away in Azkaban. Some of their kids are in this school right now." She didn't want to make it sound like her problems were worse than his, because they weren't, she had two loving parents who have been their her entire childhood. Ben, he had nothing.

Shaking her head and balling her fists, the girl tried to release the anger that was so sudden. "Look. I'm sorry. I didn't know, but you obviously did. You don't think I wouldn't have told you about what I read? I'm not scared of you, I'm not scared of your dad, I'm not scared that he made a weapon out of you. Clearly, if I was I wouldn't be here." Taking a few breaths she looked at Ben and then away to rest her forehead on the wall. "We're such idiots, both of us. You can't trust anyone if your life depended on it and I trust too damn easily." A light thunk sounded from the wall as her head connected with the wood. "I don't even know what to say right now. If I was anyone else I would have left. My mum stayed for a reason..."

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Higher in Your Ways // OPEN Nov 12, 2013 22:23:26 GMT -8

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"Addie, his age has nothing to do with this! He is a smart guy, and talented. You know, he is making an new drought of death? Death! That doesn't see so innocent to me!" His anger was getting away from him, " And he does too have family, he has a brother, and a rather dedicated girlfriend from what I understand. I just don't understand why the whole thing upset you so much!" He could tell she was frustrated, but frankly, he was too.

"Yes I knew, of course I knew! That kind of thing is not something a person forgets. I've never told a soul, no one was ever supposed to find out! This is my problem, Eddie, Cait, you, none of you should need to worry about it. I can't let this get out, not to anyone! You have no idea how big this is. No idea!" He knew she didn't understand, and he couldn't make her without telling her more information, but he just couldn't do it. As long as no one knew, it was possible it wasn't true. As long as no one knew, it could never be tested. "My father will do /anything/ in his power to change me back. Your parents protect the world, mine tares it apart!"

Standing he watched her pace. He too was balling his fist, but his was to keep the anger in, not let it out. "Addie, why do you have to be so brave? Don;t you get it, he could kill you, or worse! He isn't above it. How do you know I'm not above it? No one knows what kind of weapon I am, No one! Fuck, I don;t even know all of it." Turning from her he stormed to the other side of the room. "You're right, I can't trust anyone. I am trying to change that, but it is not easy! Trusting isn't a bad thing, I know that, but I am just not capable! " He faced her a she banged her head, he felt like doing the same thing.

"You're mother stayed to keep an eye on me Okay. I am the reason she is still here! I am being watched by the ministry because they think I am dangerous, they think I am going to return to my father. They think I am nothing but a FUCKING TOOL!" Benji lost it, only for a second, but it was enough. As he yelled both tea cups shattered. Neither he nor Addie had been near them but the china scattered across the floor and tea hit the ground.

Benji was mortified. How could he have let this happen. Immediately he stopped, his voice dropped and he backed towards the door. "Addie I... I'm sorry I... I can't do this..." Moving quickly to the couch he walked through the glass to grab his bag. "I need some time to clear my head, get my life together. I'm not boyfriend material right now...I'm sorry."

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Higher in Your Ways // OPEN Nov 12, 2013 23:42:55 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Nov 12, 2013 23:42:55 GMT -8

Letting her head thunk again she froze solid. "So what? Who cares what he was making! Clearly he's not using, maybe he just wanted to test his abilities! It upset me because I care. I care about you, I care about him. As much as I hate to admit it I care about Joram. Maybe you just can't understand because you don't do the whole trust thing." She waved her hand at him slightly and just shook her head. Tears started to form again at the corners of her eyes and she blinked them away, just looking on in disbelief. "I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt, but the look on my mum's face told me everything I needed to know. She doesn't think he did it, so I don't think he did it. That's why I'm so defensive about it."

Clenching her jaw she shook her head. "You don't think I know that? I'm the daughter of two Aurors, I've heard things and witnessed things in my life no one should ever have. Your case, with your dad, you being a weapon. It makes sense. I'm pure blooded too, you don't think I know what goes on behind closed doors? If you just took a second and listened and looked at every single Slytherin without speaking a word, just observing them you would understand that their lives aren't all rainbow and sunshine. In fact, you're better off without your dad compared to what a lot of them go through. "

"Ben. If trust isn't a bad thing how come you don't trust me? I called her in to talk to you. There is a reason other than watching you for her being here. So what if you're dangerous? My dad was dangerous and my mum stayed by him..." She was cut off by his scream. Hunkering down against the wall Addie stared at him and shook her head. She was hurt, watching him move to the door she raised her wand and shook her head.

Knuckles slowly losing their color she just stared on and took in a very deep breath. "Impedimenta." A bright light flashed from the tip of her wand and hit the door frame next to his head. "You can run away from anything or anyone else, but don't run away from me."

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Higher in Your Ways // OPEN Nov 13, 2013 0:04:55 GMT -8

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Benji froze, had she really just pulled her wand on him? Had she really just attempted to jinx him? "What the hell Adeline!" Sure, he had just broken up with her, but that was no reason to pull a wand. His anger rose once again and his hand twitch. He was fighting with himself to not attack her right back. It was all he could do to keep his hand at his side.

"You think pulling a wand on me is gonna help? I'm sorry you're hurt, but trying to keep me here isn't going to help!" Benji was livid, he hadn't expected her to take it well, but he also hadn't expected this. "What do you want from me? What do you want me to say? I'm sorry I'm such a mess. Your spell has made me think and now lets work it out?" If anything Benji was now more certain that the relationship needed a break. "Did you not see what just happened? I could have hurt you! And then you turn around and do this?!" He was frustrated, shocked, hurt and angry, really angry.

"I don't understand what you are thinking. I don't get it!" He needed to release some of is frustration, he could hardly contain it. Backing toward the door quickly he watched her carefully. "I'm sorry I hurt you, I'm sorry I'm not good enough to stick it out. But I need some time, space. I need to figure this out." He really didn't want to hurt her, he had hoped they would have parted on better terms. "Maybe if this had been a different time, or things weren't so messed up it would have turned out better for us. But right now isn't a good time... I'm sorry, but we're done."

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Higher in Your Ways // OPEN Nov 13, 2013 0:39:18 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Nov 13, 2013 0:39:18 GMT -8

Adeline didn't have a single word for him. She just stared holding her wand and just looked on at him. Chest rising and falling in very uneven breaths. "Then fight back. I can take it." Addie's voice was quiet as she looked on at him. Still in complete shock from the events that happened mere seconds ago it just piled on and on and on.

Loosening her grip, the girl let her arms drop to her sides and she just stared at him. Finally the lack of emotion she showed even surprised her. "Then run away from me, run away from the family you have now. Instead of leaning on them when you need it most and they are willing to hold you up." Tone flat, and suddenly she didn't care. Taking a step toward him quietly she narrowed her eyes.

"Until you realize that you're not alone, I'll let you be alone and you can wallow in self pity and play the victim, but I won't feel sorry for you. I offered. You denied. I've done my part. If you can't see that then I won't be bothered." Raising her wand again she flicked it toward the door and the heavy panel swung open forcefully and she nodded toward the hall. "You're so eager to take the world on by yourself, then have at it, because I can assure you Benjamin Myers, it will eat you alive. Go on, the door is open. Shoo. Have at it."

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Higher in Your Ways // OPEN Nov 13, 2013 0:46:45 GMT -8

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Post by Deleted on Nov 13, 2013 0:46:45 GMT -8

He looked flatly back at her. Her words were bitter, and he could understand why. But he didn't need to lean on anyone. Nor did he really want to. He had gotten by most of his life on his own, why should now be any different. He wasn't looking for pity, and he wasn't looking for someone to feel sorry for him.

All he could do now was shake his head. "I'm sorry." With that he turned and walked out the door. No pause, no hesitation. He just walked.